What's Behind Door #1?

November's astro highlights + exploring discomfort

If September feels like liminal space, November feels like walking through the front door.

It’s cold outside, the kind of cold that creeps up before you can manage to switch out the last of your fall wardrobe, and you’ve been gone all day at work or some other essential obligation. The turning of the door knob offers you a moment of pause. Then threshold, relief.

Maybe, it’s more like this. Maybe, you live in a different city now and it’s the beginning of the holidays and you are ‘home.’ The front door provides you a temporary reprieve from responsibility: a comfort you don’t quite find anywhere else. You can smell the chicken with potatoes and sprinkled rosemary baking in the oven, its aroma sneaking under the door frame, reminding you that you’re taken care of here.  

Or, the front door is an apartment building’s front door and you buzz in. Perhaps, there’s a hug right behind it. Perhaps, a friend. Perhaps, there’s no one at all, and you’re terribly happy to collapse into bed alone on the other side.

I’m aware that I’m naming rather luxurious and wholesome situations. (And being Scorpio season, perhaps it’s just a survival mechanism.)

Still, walking through a front door brings with it some form of expectation, a sense of what’s on the other side—even if that expectation is as simple as the hook of our cat’s tale like a questioning, where have you been? The screaming of children. The boisterous laughter of a roommate. The silence of peace. Maybe, it’s an expectation of discomfort or longing or loneliness or downright angry in-laws.

Because obviously, what’s behind a door can be something much less pleasant than the comforts of ‘home’: a growling tiger ready to rip us to shreds, a creepy blind date, a family with so much generational trauma and baggage that we can barely exist, there, within it.

And still—this Scorpio New Moon invites us to open it.

The dark Scorpio moon (its energy will last until Sunday) prompts us to go inward, to rest and recalibrate, so that we can be honest about the choices that will serve our future. New moons give us a moment to pause and decide: what we want, why we want it, what we need to do to get there.

Often this means being transparent with ourselves about our desires—and mature enough to acknowledge where we’re fooling ourselves. Where we’re constantly making decisions based on expectations. We expect comfort behind door #1. Expect loneliness, an aching behind door #2. Behind door #3, we settle our temptations and addictions for the night. Behind #4, perhaps, the tiger…

And so we open the one we think we want; avoid the ones we think we don’t.

And yet.

What if.

We opened one that scared us?

What if we chose discomfort, actually chose it, swung from its tendrils like a trapeze act?

And maybe… If you’re always tackling the big, rambunctious tigers; or you’re inclined to seek the temptations again and again… Maybe comfort is the uncomfortable door to open? Maybe that would do, for now?

I’ll leave you with this:

There are no wrong doors. Door #1, #2, #3, #4… They’ll all take you where you need to go. So, at least for the sake of upcoming Sag season, get playful about it. Tame the tiger or hide in the confines of comfort. There’s likely time for both.

november’s highlights.

VENUS IN CAP on the 5th: This is an interesting placement, and lasts until Feb of next year because of a retrograde in December. Capricorn and Venus don’t appear to have much in common at all, and yet… We find ourselves in this beautiful spot of really evaluating our commitments, long-term relationships, and our boundaries. Reliability and dependability is highlighted. Notice the agreements you make—and your follow through. Notice themes of respect/self-respect, the ‘unsexy-but-real’ work of relationships, and codependency qualms.

MERCURY ENTERS SCORPIO on the 5th: Scorpio in Merc is investigative and deep, pondering the underworld of the psyche and forever unafraid of the taboo, the hidden, the shadows. You may find yourself more willing to go there this month. It’s a ripe time for healing, so be extremely transparent with yourself emotionally. This placement can also lead to obsessions. Looping anxieties and assumptions abound. Finally, Scorpio’s intensity and passion can help motivate our mind towards forward motion—or towards a ruminating of the past. There’s a focus present. Up to us to decide what it’s on.

FULL MOON/ECLIPSE IN TAURUS on the 19th: We’re on the cusp of something. A jumping off point. Emotions may be heightened and/or all over the places. Just let it rock.

SUN IN SAGITTARIUS on the 22nd: The Sun enters Sagittarius on November 22; Mercury follows suit two days after. This is our reprieve from such heavy and emotional territory. Think adventure, fun, travel, parties, glitter, and gab. I’m seeing it like this: You’re a dark, spooky moth in a cocoon that’s been gestating all of Scorpio season, just waiting to burst forth. When you finally bust out, it’s Sag Season and you’re actually a jester on a giggling spring, erupting from your box. Pop.  

ask yourself.

• What are my true desires and what are my addictions?

• Okay, that one’s real deep from the gate. If it’s not obvious for you, ask yourself first, what do I really want?

• And then… What’s deeper than that want? Is it love? Is it attention? What’s the more embarrassing want?

• Why do we think there’s something wrong with that more “embarrassing” or “shameful” want?

• Is this a true desire or is this an ‘addiction,’ meaning something we are using to fill a hole inside of us that feels insatiable/unfillable/hungry?

a question for you.

There are some incredible outlets for astro info like this newsletter: Chani Nicholas and Astro Poets my favorite.

So I’m often pondering if this newsletter is necessary—or the best use of my writing energy.

I’d love to expand on these newsletters and find a new way to deliver my astro info. A way that excites an eternally restless Sag Sun like me. I want this newsletter to be something you look forward to, one that gives you something—even if that’s just a feeling or a story.

So please, I’m open to any of your suggestions on what you’d like to see! What do you like currently, what could you do without, what do you want me to bring back if you’ve been here for awhile…

Please, reply back to this email and let me know why you read these and what you’d like to see and I’ll pick someone who replies to buy a coffee for via Venmo!

Ideas I have: A mini Q&A each month where people ask something about their chart. Round-ups of what I’ve been thinking about/watching/reading/etc.

And I want to get back to my Hey Sis column. So, please, send in your questions because I’ll be working on one for December soon!

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